Babyy has gone back for the tedious training. i'm gonna miss him!=)
you will never know how much i care for all of you:
1. hazel
2.maine
3.kaiwei
4.caiying
5.eelen
6.cheryl
7.shuiling
8.karen
9.xiaoping
10.jon
11.kit
12.lucksin
13.zhong
14.kenyang
15.jack
16. qian ru
17.kokkeong
18.aloy
19.jonan
20.kaingee
21. muncheng
22.imran
and those who are always there for me! just love you.
they are the ones whom i care.
i miss my eelen much, and i did shoppings with her today, retail therapy. she has got her straw bag, dress, cardigan today. i love shopping with her. and and and i'm gonna meet Cheryl next next Tues for gelare, pleasing me.
i'm so gonna change his way of thinking right now. he totally lost his confidence in himself. and he got lost in this cruel world. he felt nth and he's afraid of living, living in this deserted island where there's no one living, right in his heart.like how confused, and helpless he can be. i wish i could help, i really love him. somehow, i'm also helpless tho i'm already 18. everyday's a worrying day for us. this is what he says: i cant conquer my emo-sation, i don't know why. i'm just like a star which is only noticeable at night. and i'm just like clouds, drifting away when the wind blows.
out of a sudden, these emotions flashed back. finding the way back.
for hazel, like what i have said, i hope i can always be the one with you when you need me. i'm sorry if i couldn't find the time, but i'll try my very best, as i treasure this friendship lots. i love all my friends.like how mushy i can get, i will.
baby's back today. i've got so much things to tell him. but i dont know where to start, it has been a lousy week for me. i'm kinda freaking out by my pathetic lifestyle now. i cannot wait for 28th to come, my pay day! i spent way too much and i need to replenish my account in case my mum do a spot check. and i'm sick of waking up early everyday for school and i need to recuperate.
just when you don't care, how i feel.
i dread school.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
i think he had the simplest birthday celebration this year. he didn't wanna go out for dinner, as a result he bought food home for us. miss those BBQ chicken wings, fried oyster eggs, stingray,.... which daddy bought them home. after which i took the cake me and my lil' bro brought out. the candles remind me of daddy's age. He's 49 this year, he claims he wants to be 50. 5 huge candles were placed due to demand. i saw daddy's white hair, and i promised to get his hair dyed for him. HIS ONLY DAUGHTER sang him the loudest birthday song ever, english followed by chinese, bit of malay and canto. i saw the smile on his smile, i felt so delighted. i have long forgotten about his smile since he got some problems in his work.
i got the high flying wish, hopping daddy can retire at the age of 55 and we could then provide mummy and daddy since we are already independent enough.
school's bad as usual, couldn't really sleep this few days. thoughts were running wild. there are lots of problems left unsolved. i wish i could help, but that's not within my limits. i slept with lil' bro this few days, i know he hasn't been sleeping well,certain nights i could hear him calling for help, right in his dream. i hug him tight, that's all i can do. i really hope he can pass this obstacle as soon as possible, i want to see that cheerful, out-going bro soon.i miss laughing out loud with him in the middle of the night. talking about his stuffs in school, i felt like a big sister each time he turns to me and tell me his lil stuffs, lil details in school, i really miss.
anyway, my brothers had all came back from Taiwan. they had a good time there, and sure, the trip is very rewarding. they went to lots of places and saw places, shops that are really cute and the service there was rather great. my sec brother claims that he's my boyfriend. that's because he feels that I'm a lousy girl in saving money. so he wants to give me money in other words?!? =)
Taiwan seems to be a nice place.
i'll most probably be going to hong kong for study tour in july. much much money should be saved.=)
missing fishball head much.
Quote of the day: FUCK abdulla, or wad-so-eva.
GET ME ALL THIS.
school's starting tml!
anyway, dorothy perkins got my dress altered.
